Rights and Wrongs?

I've been thinking about this whole business of infidelity and the rights and wrongs of it. I mean, yes, I do know that society as a whole views it in rather a dim light. But think about it, nearly half of all married couples in my part of the world are indulging in it! And it really is a whole different ball game, isn't it?

I was thinking about the time I spend with the golfer for instance. I don't mean anything by it, but I don't think we'd ever be a bona fide couple you know. But there's an honesty to it - just getting together and getting naked. None of society's rules seem to apply when you're naked do they - it's just the two of you - no outside influences at all. And actually that's a good thing isn't it? Think how curious people are about your relationship - it's terribly intrusive sometimes isn't it? I don't want to tell them what we get up to in private, thank you.

I also think I might get on very well in the sack with the dj; but we'd not really have much in common otherwise perhaps. He seems to have rather a different, sort of alternative type of friends. I don't feel that I'd really fit in. And all that stuff can be difficult, can't it? You know, thinking of the bm, does he stay with his lf because she acts the part so well, I wonder? That's an interesting thought, isn't it? I wonder how important all that is to him - well, there must be a reason, mustn't there. He did say he didn't like the pressure his friends put on him - you know, should I buy a hat, and all that. But in all honesty, I don't think he's the type of guy to be railroaded - and the crucial thing in this scenario is that, even if all their friends like them as a couple, his children do not!! There's the deal-breaker, right there, isn't it?

You know, I really feel a fundamental honesty in myself in what I'm doing. It's not like I'm doing anything I don't want to you know - and really, who am I hurting? Well, perhaps if he ever found out - but I'm doing my utmost to not have that happen. But if I'm completely honest, I do feel more like myself, my true self than I've felt for many many years. And you know, I'm not getting any younger. There's something wrong about wasting your best years sexually isn't there? And it does feel like I'm in my best years xxxx