Are There Rules?

Well, I came home to two emails and one message - what a lot of lovely attention. One from my businessman, saying sorry, went out for a beer so couldn't chat last night - I said, well you're obviously a lush, maybe I should think again. Haha. Not a chance - next wednesday - can't wait. Also a lovely message from the sportsman - I'm getting to like him a lot. Will hopefully meet up next week if the excuses hold up. And a message from the sailor - I'm ill but I miss you - aaaahhh xxx

So, I'm thinking now, am I being too greedy? Not that I care too much, but I don't feel that there can or should be rules here, do you? I mean, if I can see all these guys once a month, that'll be great - and why the hell should I feel guilty? It's not my choice to never have sex again with my other half. And lately I've been thinking, well, hey, if he cared so much, why the hell didn't he ever marry me? Bearing in mind, he was married twice before. What am I, sloppy seconds?

So, I'm not feeling the guilt yet, and I'm not following the rules, perhaps, but boy am I ever having a good time. Can't wait for wednesday - golly. And then saturday - hope we get on too, would be just perfect. I've kind of given up on the surveyor - I do think he thought my job was a problem - well good luck to him, but the desperate housewives type may not be the best choice if you want to avoid a drama meltdown I'm thinking.

But you know, it gives me a warm glow all day to know I have these lovely men - and that they want me. And let's be honest, it's been a long time since the oh made me feel like that - basically because he just does it occasionally to shut me up - lame, I guess you'll agree. Well, I'd rather not bother. And you know, when youngest daughter leaves, I wonder just how long I can stick it. Not long I think! And why would I? I mean, I did tell him once during quite a calm discussion about all this, that if it carried on, I would find someone else. He didn't believe me. But I said, yes I would. So, honestly, deep down, he knows. But you know, if I do go, I know I'll be treated like the biggest bitch on the planet, because we're seen as the perfect couple - just feel the irony. xxxxx