Good!

Well, all is calm here today, after a real rollercoaster of a week. Having ground my work colleague into the dust (haha) I'm still feeling pretty good. I'll be very interested to hear the reactions of a certain close friend of mine who works there as well - one of my biggest fans actually - and no bullshitter either.

Oh is still behaving so much better, I'm wondering if I should relent - maybe as I say, I'll just continue to take one day at a time though - I just don't know. It all just seems unbearable sometimes, and then it seems okay. God. We had a nice day out today - but he is sometimes unbelievably rude to me - and normally it's because of his bloody hearing, which he refuses to do anything about. I do get fed up with living with such a grumpy old bugger sometimes - but I know he's trying to make an effort. But does he actually think everything's okay again?

You know, I was wondering - am I having a mid-life crisis? And if I am, is everyone else I have met on the site as well? And actually, what is a mid-life crisis? Is it when you come to your senses and think, hey, enough of this bullshit, I could be dead soon? I guess if I was to tell everyone what was going on, they would think I had definitely lost the plot (and don't forget, I could have been committed not long ago). But I have to say, inside I just feel like I am finally being true to myself. I mean, I have thought about having affairs for a very long time - and probably would have done given half a chance. But it might have been a real mess if I hadn't arranged it all so well, mightn't it? I suppose if you watch soaps you tend to think that all affairs are discovered - but actually, is that true? Why should it be, if you're smart - and I am. Best thing, of course, is this little advantage I have always had in life - I look innocent. My god, I have got away with murder in the past thanks to that. Really. And not just in the sexual arena either. It certainly gives you an edge you know. Funny thing is, my oh is exactly the opposite - he looks like a criminal - so he's always got searched at airports and things - arrested for no reason - you name it. Hahaha!!!

So, the plan at the moment is to meet up with the dj for lunch next saturday, and then go to see the golfer the following week. Then, the lovely businessman returns, so should be able to see him soon after. And, I'm hoping to go to the opera that week too - oooh, cultural. Opera's great actually, cos anyone who commits adultery always dies horribly - haha!! Maybe I should be in an opera - what would I call it, hmmm?

Got a few easy weeks at work as well, so may well be able to fit in some extra-curricular as well. And I do feel I need it after this week. Dear me. I've got a beastly mouth ulcer because of the stress. Attractive. Still, I feel a pampering bath coming on - and perhaps the purchase of some gorgeous underwear - yes, absolutely. xxxx