It's been one of those 'get through it' type of days for me - just didn't want to be bothered today. I'm just a bit fed up with the cold and the hassle and the bitching. Also I think I'm coming to terms with just how little I'm going to see of this guy - which is quite hard actually. Not heard from him tonight, though he may appear yet - we'll see. He is a busy guy and does have to go to a lot of things - I understand that, but I guess I've just come down off the high a bit, and the reality is going to be that I'm taking about fifteenth place in his life. Tough. But the same thing the other way I suppose isn't it? He did say something about things being balanced with someone like me - so he wouldn't actually want someone who was single and available. Which I can understand. It's hard though.
Spoke to the sailor - feeling a bit better, but things aren't going too well in his business and he's been wondering about selling the boat. Oh dear - would be nowhere for us to meet then! I guess he's thought about that though. Maybe me and him are always just going to be text buddies - who knows? Also heard from the chap I met saturday. He's actually been rather guarded since we met - whereas before he was quite naughty - I suppose it changes things when you meet though, doesn't it? He's sweet though - they both are - I'm really quite lucky.
Anyhow, tomorrow is friday, which is always good. Mind you, I'm finding the weekends are actually quite tough for me in a way, cos my guys are always with their families aren't they? And I'm not so keen on mine. God, I'm on a big downer tonight, I think I'll sign off and go and have a nice bath. xx
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