Great!

How wonderful - I chatted to my guy last night, and he wants to meet up again - and sooner than he said he could manage before - golly! You know, it's all rather intoxicating, someone actually wanting to spend time with me - especially after years of the oh trying to get away from me as much as possible. Maybe I've still got it??Also very positive feedback on the whole thing - I won't go into details - but I think he may have had an even better time than I did. And he's talking about things we'll do in the summer and so forth. Well, I was very cool and calm and it was just perfect - don't want to overdo it this early really - and I do feel that this could go either way - and most probably will end up with me being stabbed through the heart (metaphorically only). But I'm on that train now, and I honestly don't want to get off. He did ask how I felt about my 'first time' - and I said, actually fine - and I do. Mad, isn't it. But I don't think I could have coped emotionally with this before now - there's got to be some benefit to getting older and wiser hasn't there?

Another nice side effect of all this - I've lost weight! Now, I have to say, I wasn't trying at all. But now I have, I may try and continue - after all, what better reason is there? But you know, I love that he likes me as I am - how great is that? A lot of guys 'say something' no matter how slim you are, don't they - well, he was just happy to be with me it seems. I wonder if he'll notice? He is smart and really doesn't miss a thing. So I'm going to try and look as good as I can - maybe some new undies for next time? Yes, I know, I tried it at home but what a waste of time that was! I can't think it'll be wasted now.

Also heard from the lovely sailor who is now feeling better, but had to go somewhere this afternoon after telling me how he's going to shave me and so on and so forth. I was in a bit of a bad way on the bus to be honest. He's adorable, and I hope we do get a chance together - but I honestly have mixed feelings now - maybe I'm just too monogamous for my own good? And perhaps I should just get over it!! xx