One day at a time...

Another strangely good day - weird - given up all pretenses now to my self of being good or moral or any of those boring things, and it feels strangely empowering. Nice. Had some sex this morning with the oh - I guess he thinks I'll come round or something. Well, it was nice enough, but over way to soon and frankly a little of an anticlimax. But I just feel now, hey, I'll get it where I can. I still feel very good at having cleared the air - but also a teeny bit guilty I suppose - but I want to just make me happy now, and sod the consequences really. I've thought about everybody else first for a very long time now. If I'm smart, I can do exactly as I want - and why not?

Talked to my businessman last night - golly - he's a bit ticked off we can't meet for a while, but said he has some lovely images to keep him going. Wow, is he real? Bless - well actually I have too. It was quite a magical evening really, but honestly can't wait to meet up again. And it'll all be a little bit easier too - although I shan't ever forget the adrenalin rush the first time he kissed me with his hands up my shirt. Oh my. After this week it should be a lot easier to talk though, as his daughter is going on holiday - he's a real softy with his kids, which I like personally. But they don't give him a minute when they're there. Could be difficult there, couldn't it? Obviously rather protective of their dad - but also they really dislike the present ladyfriend. So they can't be all bad, can they?

A nice message from my golfer today - how nice to have such a non-judgemental friend - he said I can tell him anything I want and it's fine - he knows things are a bit odd at the moment. Very sweet. He doesn't seem the jealous type, but I don't think I'll try that on for size just yet. And no message from my dj either - hope he's ok, he's having such a hard time. Still, nice to know I'll be meeting up with all three of them within the month, isn't it? And I also have a night at the opera to look forward to - very cultural! Get me!

I'm quite enjoying the oh being nice to me though for a change. It's a bit odd though - when he'd usually be bored, or say something beastly, he's asking about stuff - a bit unnerving actually. And he's been doing a few chores and things. And I think he's been washing a little bit more often too - yes I complained about the soap dodging too.

Next plan is a little bit of pampering before the next meetings - some sunbed sessions I think - nail treatments - hair colour, and so on. I may even go shopping - now, what shall I buy, let me think - underwear??? xxx