Meltdown!

Omg, what a terrible day. And night. Had a truly ghastly heart to heart with my other half. I was absolutely honest, and told him I wanted to split. He didn't take it too badly considering. The plan, such as it is, is to sell the house and split the profits. It's the fairest thing I think. A very upsetting business all round, but I do feel a lot better, madly, for having got a lot off my chest. I have been extremely miserable for a long long time you know. And he's the person who's supposed to care about me and didn't even notice. Ho hum.

So, a couple of emails from the guy I'm meeting next week - who had a similar day to me actually. And the other guy I met the other week. And that really helps - at least I get some attention from them you know. Going to meet up saturday week with the new guy - should be nice even if there's no spark. And going to see the other guy soon - date not fixed yet. Well won't this all be so much easier if I am living on my own one day. What a thought. Quite intoxicating actually.

Not yet heard from the businessman, who was supposed to be on last night! But I'm watching out for him tonight. I don't know whether to tell him what's happened - perhaps not - don't want to put pressure on this soon eh? But I do hope he's about, I need cheering up a bit - although I still feel it's the right thing to do. Not easy, is it? xxx