Well, I had a lovely day at work, and am still quite pleased with myself at everything going so well! I keep feeling like I should pinch myself - yes it was real! You know, I really deserve this, all the shit I've put up with over the last few years. Time I spent some time with someone nice who won't treat me like a doormat ( or try to perhaps).
I'm hoping to hear from my favourite guy tonight - it seems so long since wednesday - but that's probably a good thing, isn't it? Mind you, probably can't meet again until March, so there we are. Still, would be nice to chat if nothing else - see how he felt about everything as well - but he has sent some rather nice emails when he's had a chance - I don't know if the daughter or the ladyfriend were stopping him though - hmmm.
I'm really starting to think about when and how to get out of this relationship - trouble is I guess it's just a bit too comfortable - and of course I have my daughter to think of. How the hell does all this happen without people killing each other? I think in all honesty I'd best sit tight for the moment and see how things go, and also let my daughter sort herself out a bit - not the best time for her to be suffering a second hand meltdown. But I do feel much more optimistic about the future generally. I just have to be brave I guess.
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