Fantasies

You like the photo? This is kind of what I'm imagining for wednesday afternoon - oh yummy! Two sleeps till wednesday - golly! I'm definitely not feeling guilty or anything about this, but I guess it is a bit of a life changing moment, so I'm a little anxious in that way. I mean, it is the first time I've been 'unfaithful', but I rather think it won't be the last. I mean I would much rather be having all this excitement and fun with my oh, but he has made it pretty clear that's not going to happen. But will it be the start of the slippery slope? And is that necessarily a bad thing? Have I turned into a complete trollop? Yes, probably - certainly that's how the world would see it, isn't it? Though, I rather think if I was a man they'd have a lot more sympathy with my predicament.

Had a lovely afternoon with the sailor on the phone - got home from work early - he confessed he feels horny when he's ill. I said, hey, I don't care, I'll ravish you whether you're ill or not, haha! And I did, but only virtually, more's the pity. Very positive feedback though xxx

I've had probably the longest email in the world from a guy - not sure about him still - he seems a bit mad and off the wall for me. But, boy did he need someone to listen. Well, I can do that. Sent a picture too - but I must say, I think his significant other is having some kind of a break down, so I'm not sure I'm comfortable getting any more involved. Sounds like she might come after me with a knife or something, you know? And I'm not sure I can cope with a real life alternative person - yes, I admit, I'm a bit old fashioned. But, hey, I'm getting on and I'm not sure I want to live in a bus or not wash for a month. Heyho.

Waiting for my businessman to log on now - he said he'd be about - hope all is well for the big day. I've even picked out my underwear ready - now I don't think I've ever done that before - or is it just too long ago to remember? xxxxx