Well, it hasn't been good today - work was very difficult for various reasons - even the journey today was a bit of a pain. Mostly because of people deciding to throw their weight around and make life hard for other people. And why do people seem to think they should always get their own way these days and sod everyone else? I don't really get it - but I do find it a bit of a pain. Who said hell is other people - well, he was bloody well right wasn't he?
You know, it's been a bit odd today. And I'm not sure if this is just guilt or paranoia or something, but the oh has been being extremely nice to me. I wonder if my friend said something - did have a bit of a moment at her place on valentine's day - and deservedly so - cos I get very little attention these days, and sometimes wonder if he notices I'm here at all. Except of course when I'm interrupting his viewing. I suppose it's nice that he's trying a bit, but I can't help thinking this horse may have already bolted - at least in my mind you know? I guess you can't undo years of neglect in five minutes though, can you?
Two messages tonight - the lovely sailor - still feeling poorly, but a bit more cheerful. And my lovely man - he's gone to the cinema, but sent a quick message to see if I was ok. Nice he's thinking about me, isn't it? Maybe my men have dwindled down to just these two - and if so, that's actually fine. I really think I may take myself off the site - I just can't be bothered with it any more, and why not concentrate on what I'm doing. You know, it's been a great experience, but how many messages and conversations do you need? I think it's time. xxxx
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