Week off

Well my dears, good and not so good so far this week. Very good was sunday. Dammit, the sailor managed to get away - wish I'd just gone now, and sod the consequences. So there he was all alone on his boat drinking a cup a soup, and texting me. Well, then he said, I think I'll have to go below and relieve myself. Yummy I thought, especially having seen the photo (remember that? well I surely do). So I texted back, I want to watch you. Well, perfectly reasonable I thought. But obviously drove him mad, cos all hell broke loose, and we ended up having (can you have?) text sex, and was quite amazing. Kept dropping the phone, so quite difficult from that point of view, but was wonderfully erotic, especially when he told me more about what he'd done afterwards. Just lovely, and satisying as hell.

So talking also to the doctor, who wants to take me away for a weekend. Sadly, I don't think it's going to happen this time. But maybe that's for the best - he wants me to go there, and I said I can't make it there, but I could make it to S................. Let's see just how much he wants me, then, hmmm? He is just such a lovely man, and has quite a sophisticated understanding of what turns women on. He's actually quite dominant and likes telling me what to do - fantastic - but he's not weird or anything, and I do feel safe with him. He says he can find my g-spot. I keep telling him i don't think I've got one, but he is quite confident he can drive me potty. How great does that sound?? I also genuinely like him, and we talk about all sorts of things, and he makes me laugh so much - which really surprises him, mostly cos his wife's done a bit of a number on him and told him he's boring and so forth. But he's so not - he's lovely and outspoken and opiniionated, which I love. Sometimes, though, he does say exactly what he thinks, which can take you aback a little, but that's okay, I'm a big girl.

So another thing that stuck in my mind this week was walking past a sex shop with the oh and daughter. You can imagine, oh let's go buy a rabbit ha ha. While inside I wanted to scream yes, go and buy me everything that works with a fucking battery, cos Jesus I need them so badly, cos nobody's screwed me properly in years and years. Of course in reality I said nothing, but God it was hard. I do think life would be easier if I was just amoral, cos I could just go out and get what I need, instead of agonising about it all the time. Well, I've had enough, it's time I got some too as that's what all the world seems to be doing.

Planning to meet up with the sailor - nominally for a coffee and a chat - but am hoping we might have some chemistry, cos we do online, that's for sure! So anything could happen. Please, God, I need this, I've been good for a very long time, would it be so hard?

Here's hoping!!