Calmness

Well, had a lovely calm couple of days, which actually has made a very nice change. Spent some time with the oh, and was quite nice - no offers of anything physical of course, but as I said, pressure's off there, and I do think he's quite happy about it. Actually did get a bit irritated with him, as I'd told him I was on a course on Friday when I went to meet the sailor. Well, he was not a bit interested in the course or what I'd done (just as well you say) and then went on to call it my 'gay thing' I did on Friday - well, it's a tiny bit annoying he takes so little interest in what I'm doing - but then it does work in my favour, doesn't it?

Another daft thing I've done is to run out of credit on my phone. Had two texts back from the sailor and couldn't reply - so he probably thinks I've gone off him now we've met, and is doing his pieces, when actually I feel quite the opposite. I've emailed, but I know he can't always pick them up at the weekend. But then, they always say it's good to keep men on their toes, so probably won't hurt him, will it?

Nothing from the lovely doctor, but then he does have a busy life. I think it would be really hard if I had just him, as he is rather random at times. But as it is I can be quite peaceful and calm about it when I haven't heard from him for a few days, as I have my sailor. x xxxxx

He wants to spend the afternoon in a hotel week after next. God, I can't wait - I know it's going to be absolutely wonderful. Just imagine, sleeping with someone who doesn't cough their guts up immediately after coming!! And he does seem really attentive and kind. Golly. Do you know, I had quite a physical reaction when he held my hand. Well, maybe it's just that no one has done it for a long time, but I think it was more about the intentions behind it, you know? Could definitely get used to being treated like this, I think, yummy yum yum.

So, going to top up the phone, and hopefully have a lovely naughty lot of texts tomorrow when he'll get my message for sure. Seriously, I'm so glad I embarked on this little adventure, as I really feel like I'm alive again, and not like an old lady or something, with no reason to get up in the morning. Even with all the financial crap I'm dealing with at the moment, life still feels great. Have actually written to the website to say thanks, but I really feel grateful. Should be available on prescription - why didn't they when I talked to the doctor??? Bloody useless they were/are/continue to be.
See you tomorrow xxx