Lovely day

Well I've had such a lovely naughty day - want to hear about it? Ok, so I spoke to the sailor last night and he wanted to text me - fine - well I didn't really expect to be sitting on the bus reading the wonderfully naughty texts that I got. Was rather strange cos it's so quiet on the bus in the morning, and wanting to giggle and squirm about and worse was rather uncomfortable in a nice kind of way. Anyway, started off with me wearing no knickers under a long skirt, so that he could go down and lick me in a shop doorway - then was me touching him and then long hot showers and shaving each other - wow and all before nine o'clock. So when I got to work I was a bit hot and bothered - I must say though, he seems to have thought long and hard (!) about what he wants to do with me, so had a job to keep up really on the smut department. He told me later, he'd gone off for a spot of self abuse at nine o'clock, while I was trying to work - not fair!!

So - finished at lunchtime, and immediately there was a text waiting. Well I can't tell you how distracting it is to be in tescos and texting about how you love giving blow jobs at the same time - I forgot my raisins - there! Carried on all afternoon on the journey home, until one last REALLY filthy one which arrived while I was making tea in the kitchen and talking to the other half. I snuck off to the bathroom and texted back that yes i was perfectly capable of multiple orgasms and expected him to make sure I got them - and to stop immediately! He did stop texting, but a lovely long email was waiting when I got to the computer. What a lovely man - he does worry that he's gone too far quite often, which I think is more about his wife and her dislike of sex and everything. So I keep telling him it's fine - which it is - you'll have to do better than that to shock me!! God if the reality is half as good it could be wonderful. He's plotting to spend a night away soon - I'm going if I have to run away - swear to God. We often talk about how well we get on and what a strange thing is it, meeting like this - but honestly, why shouldn't it work as well as any other way? And there is the infidelity factor, I mean you don't really want to do this with your oh's best mate, do you - way too close to home - so it makes a lot of sense if people can't put you together - anonymity is so much safer, I'm sure you'll agree.

And on a more philosophical note, I think my own relationship is better these days. You may well find that hard to believe. However, I'll tell you why. The past 3 or 4 years, me and the oh have had a major bone of contention - lack of sex. Now it may seem unimportant, and maybe in the scheme of things it is. But let me tell you, it is very hard to be my age, feeling a little less attractive than in former years, I guess; and also to be rejected on a regular basis. Well, you know, he can tell me all he likes that 'it's not you, it's me' and so forth, but I felt (and honestly still do, in my heart) that he just doesn't want me enough - so it's my fault. Well, we've had guilt trips, tears, serious talks, trips to the doctor, even viagra, and honestly, nothing has changed. Except now I have my other men, I've stopped making an issue of it - so things have actually been much better. We still get on, you know, and I don't really see myself leaving him, but my god it was hard: I thought one day, is this it? it's all over, no more sex, ever!! Slightly depressing thought, you know. God I miss it - and somehow it's even worse when you've got a warm man sleeping next to you who just isn't interested. Still, feeling very hopeful about things with the sailor - can't wait.
Take care xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx