Big Day Out

Well, my dears, I did it - and an awful lot of courage it took too I can tell you! I met up with my sailor - and it was wonderful! I have actually never NEVER been so scared in my life - but my goodness the adrenalin does you good, doesn't it. Well, he looks fairly ordinary actually, but he's just lovely, and we got along so easily - I sat there talking about, you know, stuff - and I was thinking, yes I could fuck your brains out, no problem. It was actually very sweet - we talked about our lives and families and held hands and had a bit of a kiss, and then another - god, it was fantastic. I really wanted to grab him and stuff, but it was nice as it was - and it was in a cafe!

And he said he wants to see me again - let's see what he says on the email, hmm? I'm pretty sure he meant it though - what a boost for the poor shrivelled ego. And, also, although it really doesn't matter that much in the scheme of things, I'm fairly sure he's loaded. Is that a good or bad thing? Must be good - so long as I'm not cast as gold-digger. Which I honestly am not. Really. Now I can hear you not believing me, but I've never been motivated by money - wouldn't be a bloody teacher if I was, now would I? Would have married someone like the sailor and then made his life a misery (oh, someone got there first lol). Anyway, there was a fairly classy car, and my god one hell of a watch, although no flash clothes and stuff, and I thought, hmmm I smell serious money here. Also, i have to say, he did smell lovely, and no bad breath or anything. He's quite a big guy, but that's okay - cuddly - and remember the photo!!! No complaints.


So no email yet, but I know it's difficult in the evening for him. Expect there might be something later on - oh just got a text - still want you!! Lovely. He's so what I need. And also, my dears, I can't quite believe I got away with quite so many lies in one day - didn't know I had it in me!! But, it's rather good the oh doesn't want to hear about work (cos it's sooooo boring, remember?) cos I don't have to make up any more crap about where I've been - just oh you won't be interested, it's work! Makes life easier for me - god are we just going to spend the rest of our lives talking about TV and food? You see, I need my other men, and not just for sex; I need someone who speaks to me - they don't think I'm boring. Anyway, got to go; will fill you in on the feedback from himself tomorrow - but I think it will be good. I'm just a bit worried that might spook him a bit, cos he fell for some woman in Bristol, and was really hard for him. We'll see how the mop flops, won't we? xxxxxxx