Damn woman!

Well, it's definite! The sailor's wife is going with him this weekend - so that means that I'm not! Bugger! And everything else was going so well - even my period started on time, so would have been clear by the weekend - as well as the not so dangerous time to have sex considerations. Well, I'm not that old, and my granny had twins at 50!!

So, a bit ticked off about that. But never mind, he sent some lovely naughty messages about what he's been doing at 4am, thinking of me - all much appreciated by poor frustrated me, who was doing much the same thing last night. Really must buy a rabbit or something, before I get arthritis - it can't be good really, can it?

Also, got a message from the doctor, who is in Spain, but says he had some trouble with the internet and stuff. Well, no surprises there then. He went on chat to see if I was there - well, I was 20 minutes later, dammit!! Will keep my eyes open tomorrow.

Got very irritated with a work colleague today - really felt cross - my other colleague, who admittedly I don't like much, was saying how she managed in the winter by signing on, so that she got housing benefit and so forth. Well the first colleague then told her how she wouldn't sign on, it wasn't worth it, it was too much hassle for too little money, and she would never do it!! I was so cross i could hardly speak- cos she has a rich boyfriend (bit of a trustafarian) and his rich parents to support her. I just said well, not everyone has that choice, and walked out. Not really wanting to stick up for the other lady, but was just so irritating, and typical of rich spoilt people everywhere - yeuch! But I have to say, many, many teachers are like that - and also seem to really believe they are better than everyone else - I know very well, because I haven't always been a teacher, but have been on the receiving end more than once. Nice.

Anyway, the frustrations continue apace. Maybe I should go back on the site and get a couple more men more willing and able and close to home!! What do you think? Am I greedy? I was thinking today about something the sailor said to me - he said the other woman (his first short-lived affair) said that all he really wanted was a penfriend. Hmmm I thought, I wonder if all these problems are as insurmountable as he says - maybe he just doesn't want the reality?? Well, he's now thinking November - can I bear it? - so we'll see. In the meantime, a little seed of doubt is growing - even if it does come off, it's not going to be very often. Perhaps it is time to go back on the site -any more of this waiting and I'll hump anyone, even if I have to put a bag over their head, honestly.

Was talking about being unfaithful at work today - you know, general terms. Doing my usual, well I'm a happily married woman turn. Felt a lovely little frisson of naughtiness though, knowing what i have been up to, and nobody knows. I swear to god, this is doing me more good than any anti-ageing cream, or whatever. Should be available on prescription, i think. And any minute I might kill my next door neighbour who is working on his car with some sort of electric drill thing. Need some sex or I could get dangerous, I think. Take care. xxxxxxx