Had Sex!!

A great day, my friends, I had sex!! And not naughty illicit sex either - sex with the other half!! Better not tell my other men, had I? Well, he woke me up at 4 am and was lovely - made me remember what I liked about him, you know? Of course, it was all over too fast, but I did come hard, and went back to sleep like a log. Delicious. But, let's just see how long until it happens again. I mean, that's the first time, since I've been writing, and that's a while, isn't it? Such a shame, though, in a way, cos it reminds you how much you love it, and at the same time, I know it'll be ages till it happens again. Sob. What can I do, though, apart from find it elsewhere. Done, the discussing thing, the begging thing, crying, not speaking, you name it really. Nothing works. So here I am. But even so, was very nice and feel a lot more human today. Just wish it was every day.

Nothing from any of my lovely men today, but didn't really expect it, of course. Did get a late night filthy message from my sailor which cheered me up immensely. I don't think he realises how much I enjoy his sense of humour, so must tell him how delicious and sexy it is. He needs to be appreciated, I think. He's so good to his family - makes me a bit jealous really. I could live with him you know and be so happy. But mustn't jump the gun - who knows what the future holds.

Also, have applied to go to Spain, on one of these volunteer things. I know the doctor won't like it, cos he's convinced I'm going to sleep with them all, but never mind, what can he do. Oh is fine about it. I do wonder sometimes if he doesn't realise, deep down, that I'm looking elsewhere as it were - he just doesn't want to acknowledge it, you know? Well, it lets him off the hook, and things are much more pleasant since I haven't been doing all the above in the quest to have sex. Strange, how he is sometimes - who knows? Still, a momentous day - want it again now, though, tonight. Not going to happen dearie. Be good xxxxxxx

Quick update - just about to go and cook dinner when who should appear online but the doc? Well how lovely to talk to him - he's so smart - I've missed him, and his dry sense of humour. He's trying to talk me into going over there - I can't I've got responsibilities - then I said, well hey, maybe I could go mad like agatha christie did and just disappear for a few days. I could blame my madness on not having enough sex - well, he liked that, and offered to cure me - tempting, huh? But no, I have to be sensible, and my plan will all pay off in the end, I know. Just got to get the oh used to me going off and stuff, and I can slip away for a few days with my doc. Nice cheery chat for the end of the weekend. Glad about that, as last time we spoke it got a wee bit heavy duty - not always a good idea I think, cos i let things out I probably shouldn't. Still, there we are. Love him lots (don't tell him).
Take care, and don't get caught chickens xxxx