Calmness!

Well, we've been talking and talking and we've decided to cool it, but see where things go. The problem is we've both got such weird stuff going on at home - maybe we need to sort that out first. But we are totally honest and upfront and that's just brilliant. He is my very best friend - no doubt about that at the moment. Only person I'm honest with even.

But, I'm still chatting with my american lady. I've told her she needs to get another sex man, cos then she won't get so cranky about sex man number one. Who seems to like playing games a bit. Works for me. I told her I've got three men now, and she said, yes, they say when you decorate a house, you should use odd numbers like three and five. Maybe I should shoot for five then, or would that be greedy?

Still haven't heard from the bm. Yes, I know he's busy and all that, but a week??? Still, I'll survive. What was all that about the flat and so forth? Absolutely not going to act like a desperate sad case though - call me buster! You know where I am.

Definitely need some action - well, got some lined up for the beginning of June, but that seems such a long time!! Maybe he'll get something together soon - maybe he'll even come online and chat to me!! Grrrrr!!!

Things hotting up at work as well - not for me you understand - but all the people with the dubious morals are coming back - sure makes life more interesting. And I get to act all moralistic and middle class as well - what a hypocrit!!! What fun!! xxx