Bank Holiday!

Well, I haven't written for a while, mainly because I've had some pretty strange stuff going on and I'm trying to work it all out myself. I haven't heard from either of my favourite men, so I guess they're busy with their families. So nothing to report there. But I've been talking so much to the swimmer, and it's all getting very intense actually, and I'm starting to wonder what it's all about, actually. We are so scarily in synch and have so much in common - a good thing I suppose. Well, I've now suggested we really should swap photos and maybe meet, but I'm so nervous and it would be so tragic if we didn't actually get on! But the thing is we really started out as friends, and he knows I'm sleeping with other guys, so it really wasn't like we were looking at first.

How did it happen, I don't know. But it did change, and it feels, ridiculously, like we could really be soulmates or something. You know, I'm writing it, and as I do I'm thinking how mad it is. But it honestly doesn't feel mad, it feels right. Dear god, what on earth? Maybe I just need to meet up with my bm and get a damned good sorting out. Can you fall in love online? Surely not!