Birthday anniversary?

Well, my birthday is approaching fast and with it the one year anniversary of my being a cheating not-actually-married spouse. And today, I read Tom Allen on The Edge of Vanilla, which really made me think about this. Apparently, the day after mothers day is the highest number of people signing up on Ashley Madison - well, I checked this out, it's like the site I was on, for married people. Now, isn't that interesting - something to do with unfulfilled expectations they think. Well, yes my expectations were pretty low last year, but I still spent most of the day crying. And signed up the next day. Interesting research though, isn't it?

Well, I've had a lovely relaxing weekend, and feel lots better now. Work isn't going to be too taxing next week, so that's good as well. Money still an issue as ever, but really not as bad as this time last year. If only I had more of it, I'd bugger off tomorrow - such a tool for freedom isn't it?

I seem to be getting a lot of internet friends in a similar position to me as well, which is kind of nice. Cos I can't actually talk to anyone else about what is going on. Many women seem to be in sexless marriages - would love to see some statistics about this, but I really do think it's the last taboo, so can't see it happening. My oh was apparently telling the pub how he still got it up whenever he wanted today - so there you go! I'd be laughing if it wasn't so painful. Ouch.

Hoping to hear from the gorgeous bm tonight - it's been a while, so I'm concentrating on non-crankiness - unlike what I really want to say I guess. I know he's off on a trip next week - wonder if he has a window of opportunity??? Wish me luck xxx