Blimey!

This is driving me potty. He sends me one of his polite - hope you're okay emails - chat soon. Well, that was two bloody days ago - nothing. So here I am again like a lemon, working with the chat open in case he deigns to make an appearance. I shouldn't really should I? He's so cool all the time - I truly have no idea what's going on with him. I sometimes think he's going to come on and say, no, that's it. I'm marrying her and I don't want to see you again - ugh!

On a more cheerful note, I'm seeing the golfer in a few weeks, so he's been in touch again - lovely man. Feeling a little claustrophobic actually - his wife's retired, so he doesn't get out and about alone much. It's a problem I can identify with - imagine if I wasn't working! He's booked the stockings again - likes them. Hoping to stay over this time - hope I can swing it.

I'm also sending good thoughts to my american girlfriend, who is meeting a new man tomorrow. I did encourage her a tiny bit, but this new guy sounds lovely. Hope it works out for her. She's been a real godsend, and we help and encourage each other quite a lot. And we tell each other if we're getting a bit pathetic - she's so nice. This honestly isn't something you can talk about with even good friends, is it??

I also have such a lovely thing going with the swimmer. We talk all the time - but it's actually very serious stuff about life, relationships and so forth. But a bit naughty at times. We get on exceptionally well, he knows what I get up to, and he understands completely - amazing. Whatever happens he's my bestest friend I think - very strange, but there it is. Later xx