Bless him!

Well, I've said I may be busy and I'll have to see nearer the time - but maybe if he does get away once, he could do it again! Good compromise I think - and puts off actually making a decision doesn't it? He's not a confident guy and he is worried to death about this - and actually won't stay overnight, but that's okay, it's easier for me to do an afternoon and evening isn't it? Trouble is, he had another woman before who did make him stay away - and I think in a way that's made his oh very suspicious - you know, like she's on the scent! Not good - don't want to tangle with her, she sounds a bitch - but then all these people who refuse affection are, aren't they?

Had an interesting conversation this afternoon - my swimmer said to me, the oh always tries it on really late at night when he's asleep - now, she knows he's no good to man or beast then. But, my oh keeps trying it in the morning, when I HAVE to get up for work. Don't you think it's so they can say, oh, well you're the one who doesn't want it, you're always refusing me, I feel really unloved. What utter bullshit after all the years of crap they've dealt out to us. No, not falling for that crock of shit.

You know, it's true what the swimmer says (he's very wise) - if you stop making it your responsibility, you make yourself free. I'm responsible for me and no one else. And I'm doing fine thanks, and so are my lovely men. What a lovely thing it is not to do guilt! Much more fun than the other way - tried that too long - blah! Bm back soon - a meeting I think - and even more new underwear?? xxx