New Year

Not feeling particularly great this morning - but was cheered up immensely by the photo Tom had posted on 'The Edge of Vanilla' - I'm afraid I just wanted to rub my face in his chest. I do get quite horny when I'm tired and hungover, which is a bit peculiar, isn't it? Had a lovely flirtatious night last night - oh never ever notices if I talk to other men which is very trusting - but then I probably wouldn't go there so close to home if I'm honest.

A strange thing, though. On the way home, we came across two, yes two, couples having sex in the street. Now, I've never seen this before, ever, even once. But twice in one night, that's just mad, isn't it?? Now, I know it was late, and yes, I guess there wasn't many people around, but it was minus two degrees!! And if I'm very honest, I was a little jealous - it's been a long time since I had an outdoor adventure - but maybe not that long until I do again!

I heard from both my favourite men last night, which was so nice. Managed to talk to the doc before I went out, and got a text from the sailor - how nice they were both thinking of me. And I guess I'll hear a lot more from both of them soon now the holiday is nearly over.

Also had a couple of really interesting conversations with close friends - the upshot of this is that both are thinking of ending their relationships for different reasons. Doesn't it seem that christmas makes you feel like that. Interestingly for me, I've quite enjoyed myself this year. I have no expectations of the oh - and that part of my life is now elsewhere - at least partly. So things were a lot more relaxed. I was almost tempted to tell one friend to do what I'm doing, but self preservation won out in the end - even despite the drunkenness!! I still feel tempted though to call it a day - but there are still good things here for me - not least is the shared history. And as I say, he is rather getting on, so it seems a bit cruel.

Still, onwards into the new year, and lots more adventures waiting for me. I did hear about a friend of the same age as me whose husband has run away with a younger woman - she couldn't even be bothered to come out for new year - well if you give up like that, what possible attraction would you have for a man. The really interesting thing is that they were involved with the local wife-swapping group for many years, but I guess it did for them in the end!! A salutary tale perhaps, but also a lesson not to be old before your time. No chance of me doing that I think - I still think I'm 18. See you soon and I think we all hope next year will be better for us all, don't we???