New Possibilities?

Well, as you know, I have been talking to an awful lot of men - and some are better than others - and yes you have to be careful and all that. But I think I have narrowed it down to the ones I want to talk to and I shan't bother with any others. Why would I? So I now have a new mobile number - my scouse footie fan - hmmm what should I do with that? He is great fun to talk to, but no great looker - but does that matter that much - probably not. He's not fat, and he doesn't need a bag over his head. Ok.

I do like talking to him so much - even though he's not really like my other guys - but perhaps a bit more what I'm used to? And he is really good fun. There's a lot of guys online from really remote places - like dubai - and while it is quite entertaining, well what's the point? You know?

So I'm thinking really hard about this - cos it could be really good. He has got kids though, and I'm not really up for taking that on, you know. But a bit of fun could be just what the doctor ordered. Will have a think about this.

Meanwhile, had a big big row with the oh yesterday. Well, not so much a row. More of a don't speak to me like that cos I don't like it. I think he saw my point of view in the end. It's hard though, cos when we used to row, we would end up sorting it out in bed, and that just doesn't happen now, sadly.

You know, we do live together well most of the time. It may sound strange, but that's exactly what I mean. I just miss the sex so much, so much. He does know, I've told him many times. He's just not really willing to do anything about it. Going to the doctor and so on was really just to keep me quiet I think. And as I've said before, viagra doesn't work in a drawer. But with that out of the equation, things are pretty good. But when I really start thinking about it, I don't want to live without sex for the rest of my natural life, and I honestly don't think it's fair. So that's why I really really don't feel bad about what I'm doing - it just feels like redressing the balance a bit. But then, I haven't actually done the deed yet. But apparently some men feel that what I have done - all that talking and cybersex and stuff - is actually worse. How can that be? It certainly isn't as good - so its not fair to be punished more for doing that, is it? Still, life really isn't fair is it?