Spring???

Wow, I was miserable yesterday - but I think it really was the low ebb before the tide turned. Feeling so much better today - there was sunshine and it was absolutely beautiful - little pockets of mist on the fields - wonderful. Also, a couple of nice messages from my sailor xxxx You'll remember we curtailed our possible adventure this week - which actually was just as well with the weather I think, and also the fact I am now suffering from the monthly beastliness. He reckons he's talking in his sleep though - oh dear - wonder what he's saying??

Also, got a rather nice and unexpected message from a very nice sounding man - a businessman! Well - thinks we could be very compatible - and he's still got hair! Well, I wrote back saying, hey what more could a girl want - get in touch! Similar to myself in that he's quite settled, but no sex. Good lord, though - this is really an epidemic isn't it? I really had no idea before I started this. Honestly, if you read the papers you get the impression that everyone's at it - all day!! But in fact, it seems to be the opposite doesn't it? Maybe that's what makes it so difficult when it happens to you. God know, I know how hard done by I felt when it all faded away - and something of a failure to if I'm honest. I really and truthfully think that these guys are actually saving my relationship - I know it sounds mad, but I don't think I'd have lasted the year. No. My self esteem was buggered and I really didn't see the point any more - I can imagine people might do mad things in similar situations, cos I did almost feel that bad.

The good thing is, I don't feel like that any more. Yes, I've had a few knock backs - but you just have to be philosophical. I'm just not their type or whatever - their loss. Strangely I still have the first two guys I spoke to - lucky me - mad isn't it? Anyway, might log on and see if this new guy is about - sod being faithful to anyone ever again, that's my new motto - born again slapper, that's me. Well, I do have a few years to catch up on. Take care, and hope you all feel as optimistic as me today xxxx