Wonderful Day!!

I have had such a great day! Well, according to the family, I went shopping. But (bet you've guessed) I was actually having vast and greedy amounts of sex with my golfer fella. What a wonderful day. We had the camera out, and it all got very extremely naughty! Will I be brave enough to look when he sends them? And we had a lot of fun too - chatting about everything, making lunch, having a shower. You know, I like him a lot, and he's so great - and I honestly can tell him anything. I talk to him about the oh and my other fellas too.

He said something interesting today. He said, maybe your oh has another woman, or several - I said, oh, he spends all his time in the pub. Well, he said, why do men not see that as cheating? It's the same thing - spending your time and energy with other people, when you have said you wanted to be with your significant other, supposedly the most important person in your life. I said, you know that's exactly it!! That's what's made me so angry all these years - I guess I could stand it when I got some attention (read sex) - but now I get nothing at all. No, it's not good enough is it. Nice to clarify my thoughts though.

And even more good news - a lovely long email from the bm in a far distant country. He'll be back next week. I wonder if I can see him before christmas - if not, soon after I think. I told my fella about him. He's fine with it - but it wouldn't be vice versa I feel - I said, maybe that's cos he couldn't handle it, or maybe because I like him so much - bit of both probably. Gosh, so many men - how things can change in a year, can't they? Remember last Christmas when I felt so fat and unsexy? Wow - seems like a different person - and perhaps I was in all honesty. A wise friend told me recently, that the people close to you are the last to notice that you have changed. How true. I actually told someone I was sleeping with three men the other day - like you do - she laughed and said, oh, you'd never do that!! Oh yes I would - ain't life grand xxxxx