Tired and Emotional?

Well, the main Christmas thing is over. I feel very tired and more than a little emotional - I think I'm going to have to concentrate on keeping my own counsel today more than usual! Had a nice evening with my oldest friends last night, so that was good, but there's always the nostalgic shared past thing - and I was thinking how we might never do this again. But then again, do I really want to do that every year for the rest of my life?

It's all about resistance to change really isn't it? And how scary is change actually? I think if I'm brutally honest, that's probably what's kept me here for about the last decade - fear. Not really a good basis for a relationship is it? I really must find a way to embrace change - even though I do find it so hard. Other people manage it, why not me?

Otherwise, very little going on - everyone's busy with family stuff. Hopefully less so today, and I so miss my American xxxxx