Time Passes

Well, time marches on doesn't it? No sex since september 27th - so nearly three weeks - timing things much more since I've been writing it down - I wonder if that's a good idea really. A couple of things to report. Spoke to the lovely doctor - I do like him - but not for too long. That's it, leave him wanting more! Was nice though, but I'm really tired tonight and feeling a bit pissed off if I'm honest. And life doesn't seem to have anything great in store for me at the moment - just a load of crap to sort out. There we are. Enjoyed talking to him though.

I've found things have slowed down an awful lot with both men - might have to wake them both up soon - how?? Also got two emails from the sailor - lovely - he was on his boat yesterday. You won't believe this - his oh told their daughter never to settle for no sex in a relationship !!!! Oh the irony! I feel like telling him that he should listen to her sometimes. He's so nice though - couldn't be that cruel. I know he feels like he's doing the right thing keeping the home and business together for the daughter. And I do think there's a fair bit of money involved here. I do hope he doesn't think I'm after it - can see the attraction and all that, but it's really not my motivation - do like him so much. I have a chance to go to spain - hurrah - but will it be at the same time my sailor is free?? Would fate be that cruel? Probably. We shall see - tomorrow if I'm lucky.

Saw an old friend of mine last night - she's a lesbian with such a lovely girlfriend. Made me really think - they're so happy - it seems so uncomplicated - wish I could in some ways - but you know me by now - just a dirty little man toy really. Love them, just love them. God, I need to have some sex soon - is wanting it more than once every six weeks greedy? I'm so confused - just need it. Man, how easy it would be if I was an animal cos they don't agonise about all this stuff - just go get what they need. Think I'm going bonkers sometimes. See you later xxx