Camera!

Well, I've got the camera, and I've read up on how to take erotic shots of yourself - so just got to have a go now, don't I? I have to say I think my sailor needs cheering up and this could be just what he needs to liven him up - just so long as I don't look like a beached whale - you know what I mean? So, going to have a fiddle.

He's told me he's having a trying time at the moment because his oh is coming off antidepressants - doesn't sound like a good idea at all to me, but not my problem ultimately. He says she's being very weird - which sounds about right, doesn't it? I did ask him if that was why she had no sex drive, and he thought yes - maybe that's why she's coming off them? Could be out the window if I'm not careful. Hmmmm. I still think he'd rather sleep with her, but she's just messed him around for so long it's done his head in. Crazily, I'd rather he didn't sleep with her and that I had him all to myself.

You know, I was thinking at the weekend - this is what I've heard 'other women' complain about all these years - how you're always lonely on weekends and holidays. I never hear from my men on holidays or weekends, and yes I do feel a bit lonely. Oh is usually either in the pub or asleep. So not much fun. And I know it's really daft, but I can't help thinking oh, maybe he'll leave her and decide he can't live without me thing. I guess we all just want to be wanted don't we? Cos in reality I don't think I want that; or do I???? Puzzling.