Sex Free Zone!

Well my dears, another weekend nearly over, and no sex for little me. Managed to get a nice cuddle by begging, but that's all. Sad. Still, otherwise a nice weekend, and been out in the lovely autumn weather kicking leaves around and picking things (this week, chestnuts!). Had a couple of sneaky messages from my sailor, but obviously it's difficult for him. Nice he's thinking about me though, isn't it?

I do sometimes have attacks of conscience, particularly when I'm having such a nice time with the oh, and people treat us like we're the ideal couple and all that. Well, we are outwardly I suppose. But then you do never really know what's going on do you? I think honestly that he's really happy with the way things are - although he does get frustrated sometimes, but that's because he isn't working and stuff and not because he wants sex lol!!!

We were out walking when I got a message from the sailor, and it seemed really surreal - and not a little deceptive. Which it is, isn't it? But then I do have to think of my sanity, you know - and I can honestly say I've felt so much more alive and appreciated since I've had my men that I definitely wouldn't go back now. But then I wonder, what would people think? I live in such a small town, and I'm sure everyone thinks I'm like some sort of saint - how boring. Really, they would be shocked. Just have to make sure they don't find out!

So no contact from the doctor - despite promising a chat over the weekend. I've decided I need to make things a little more difficult for him, so won't always be available! Will do him good. He drives me crazy sometimes. Maybe I should blow him out - no he's too much fun. And fun is something I need desperately at the moment due to severe financial crap. Mind you, I'm making headway in that direction as well - partly because I'm selling nearly everything that's not nailed down on ebay - and making a tidy profit as well, I can tell you!!

I also heard from Spain as well today - and it sounds like they want me to go although they haven't made a firm offer yet. So will need some money for that as well - but obviously not much as it's not really a job - just need fares and stuff - but wouldn't like to go off to Spain with no money. Well, I know that will drive the doc mad - he said he didn't want me to do it, cos he knew I'd end up sleeping with the Spanish men - yum - well, I might, but don't tell him ( or the oh, lol). Definitely possibilities there I think, don't you???? xxxx