Terrible!

Well, everybody's ill, the economy's still in the toilet, the weather's awful, and my financial state just gets worse and worse. Terrific. You know, I work so hard, and I try all the time to pay off all this flaming debt and all it seems to get me is more threatening letters - and my god they are horrible sometimes. The best one I had was so comic book villain that I just had to laugh, get this 'your continued efforts to elude payment have been in vain' - just who do they think they are, some moustache twirling villain in a black and white movie??? So, anyway, feeling a bit off as quite honestly I just seem to be killing myself just to stand still sometimes. But I'm sure I'm not the only one, am I??

No news from my doctor at all - he seemed a bit off when I last spoke to him I thought. But we shall see. Would really be up for going to see him you know - mad isn't it - cos I've never even seen a photo of him. Nuts, what am I like?? My sailor is sick - you know, manflu - and added to which, his wife is still driving him barmy. Not good at all, I think. I seem to always be working - and then I come home and everyone's just lying around sleeping and doing fuck all. Nice. I think I need to do some more new things to liven myself up. Hmmm - had a message or two from a 36 year old on the site - what a yummy thought. Not bothered about my age (I know ahem) so sounds quite interesting. Trouble is, his spelling is just appalling, and I know it's a terrible prejudice, but I can't quite get past that. He says he's built like a rugby player, which sounds quite delicious, so maybe I'll send him another message - or one of my naughty photos. Yes, I'm working on it. That might liven me up - need to start living dangerously again.

And don't forget - just over two weeks to go - god will actually be having sex again - with someone new - it doesn't get better than that, does it? Perhaps with a rugby player in his thirties could be better though, couldn't it? See you xxxx