Lovely!

Haven't quite got over the weekend yet - so I took a couple of days before I thought I could write about it. Well, everyone went out (football!) so I was home alone - and on the phone to the doc. Well my god, what can I say - I'm not sure this isn't better than real sex - just fantastic - couldn't even stand up for about twenty minutes. Wow. He's got the most naughty voice - omg - and even though he said he didn't like to talk, well, my goodness he made a good effort for a beginner. I've been thinking about it and feeling all peculiar ever since.

He did say, do you think you prefer this to the real thing - but I said hell no, I still want to get together - absolutely. So we've promised each other that we definitely will soon in the new year. Will be just fabulous I know it. He's still my absolute favourite. Got a message today on the site, but I don't really know if I can be bothered - it always seem to be such a lot of anxiety and effort for a while, and then they just go off the radar. Well, that's happened a few times. But then, not my two favourites, who are mine all mine. Maybe I shouldn't be so greedy hmmmm?

Also heard from the sailor, but we seem to be missing each other a lot the last couple of weeks. Still, as I said before, I'm absolutely not giving up on him - he is just so sweet and yummy. No way. Not even if we have a long wait. He hasn't said any more about what I said about the other woman, and how I thought she was talking rubbish and had her own agenda - but I do think it was appreciated and made him think a lot. Cos I don't really have an agenda, and no real interest in manipulating my men particularly - like I think she did - cos I think I'd go right off them anyway if I did! I think he now knows I'm here for the long haul and not for what I can get out of it - and if not I'm off sort of thing. Just really like his company you know - and if we do get together, so much the better - but I am sort of annoyed with the other woman for a) actually having had him overnight and b) having made his oh so suspicious that it's almost impossible for him to get away.

You know, I do wonder if she did something - you know, a letter or something. Maybe that would explain all the problems he has. Might ask him what he thinks tomorrow. In the meantime, looking out for the doc. See you xxxx