Guilty?

Well, just talked to the doc again - first time after last week's wonderfulness. He told me he'd felt guilty all week - and I just felt angry - how could he spoil this for me? But then I guess he can't help how he feels. This seems to be a recurring theme actually, doesn't it? Except by me I have to say. Interesting. You know, I think I thought so long and hard (!) about actually doing this that by the time I got to it, I just didn't feel guilt at all - I'd thought it through and that was that.

And I have to say, I still prefer my two lovely men from IE to the guys I meet on Imvu, which is just not the same thing at all. I do think there's some weird games being played on there, so I just play them right back and take it for what it is. OK. But my men - no, that's real - definitely. We have relationships now, and that's it for me. Sure, I wouldn't tell them about each other, but guilt doesn't come into it - I'm just so happy to have them in my life.

Had a couple of conversations lately about the weirdness of meeting people this way - strange, huh? But, no, I don't think anyone's on to me, so not to worry. There is still a lot of prejudice against it - and actually, is it any better to meet someone when you're drunk - which, honestly, is what most of us do - or I guess when you're working. I don't think so, and I do know many many people now who it's been successful for. Not about to disclose my findings though, haha! Anyway, should hear from the sailor tomorrow - and, hey, no work!!! See you xxx