Filthy Thoughts!

So I was doing my own little thing today - not that - going to work and everything, bit of shopping, browse in the town and so on. Obviously, thinking filthy things and occasionally texting such to my sailor - when it occured to me just how many 'looks' I was getting from men lately. OMG - is there some man radar thing that makes them know just when you're thinking dirty thoughts? How strange.

Still, maybe it's just the overall kind of feeling better about myself influence that all this male attention has had on me. I must say, things at home are much better than they would have been otherwise - the level of sexual activity having dropped to negligible - and before I think I would have been going batty. But to no avail. God forbid I cast aspersions on his masculinity and stuff - how awful - well I've pussy-footed around all this for so long, and been caring and listening and all that crap - and honestly, I still am not getting laid. So what was the fucking point? And tell me why I spent twenty quid on those viagra which are gathering dust?

Still, am definitely feeling better in so many ways, despite the odd disappointment - well, such is life, isn't it? And talking to men like I do now, I certainly don't feel bad making myself come, because well no one else is around to do it are they - and god, these guys don't feel bad about it do they - they've got it out at every opportunity. And, even better, they tell me all about it. Sometimes I even get to listen - god, that was thrilling - even though I was pretty carried away myself.

Maybe that's it - what's making me so attractive to men - all that self-loving - well it does make you feel more sexy doesn't it? Also discovering some pretty fabulous blogs and amazingly learning things I didn't know before - christ, I thought I'd been around. But then it also makes you think, hey, what have I been thinking, doing without this???

Still on for Friday, as far as I know. He really is a man of few words - and looking at his profile, really just wants to get laid - well, can I handle that? I think so. I'm a big girl now, and I've been treated worse - at least he's honest. Wouldn't it be wonderful if he had a room booked or something - we could just go at it all afternoon. Dear God, I need it, it's been so long. Also, been reading about rabbits - thanks bad, bad girl - and really, it's time I got this together. I'm so fascinated by the g-spot thing as well, so call it research. Just terrified to go into the shop in the town I work after being followed in by students. Mind you, could combine a spot of shopping with my meeting with the builder - what's that in your bag - well, let me show you! hahahaha would break the ice wouldn't it?? xxxx