No, not me - just feel like everyone around me is today. Which is hard. Oh isn't too bad today, thank god, despite having just been to a funeral. Had quite a startling conversation with a work colleague today, who confessed just how down she had been feeling - yes, the same one who's been on the diet forever. Well, it's always a shock, but I felt I had to just stop and talk it out a bit, so that's what we did, but still feel quite concerned about her. I have always felt she felt somehow inadequate in lots of ways - not that she is at all I hasten to add - but I know she feels it. And the younger husband doesn't help - I've always felt suspicious of him and how fucking brilliant he is supposed to be as well - I just think he's an idiot who's afraid to grow up myself.
So then heard from the sailor, who was feeling much the same. Well, yes, but you know it's not my problem however sympathetic I am. Although I do very much want to slap his wife. She sounds horrible, but then of course, it's just the one side, isn't it?
But why don't I feel depressed - well, I've been up to mischief of course. Nothing better is there? So I was on IMVU and met this guy from somewhere abroad, and we ended up getting up to all sorts of virtual mischief. Very good fun. Maybe this stuff should be available on prescription? Mind you, still would rather have the real thing.
What was lovely actually was that I did tell him my age (eek) but it didn't make him hesitate for a moment, even though he was a lot younger than me. Now, you don't get that with europeans or americans for that matter. Maybe I should move. But I do think there is a natural respect and admiration for older women that our guys have been taught not to have - except in exceptional cases, you know like Helen Mirren. And there is the money factor (see yesterday) - but then partly that's what's getting everyone down isn't it?
Also, spoke to my daughter this morning who said someone had thrown themselves under the train. She was rather ticked off about it - this is not the first time! So, back to feeling rather concerned about my friend - just how do you help someone who feels so down? Can you do anything? What would I want someone to do for me? But then, you would never know I was down cos I'm good at covering it up.
I did admit during this conversation to things not all being brilliant in my relationship - now I know this won't go any further - but to my surprise, I'm not alone. And we did have a chat about things changing and so forth - didn't mention anything about sex as such, but we both understood where we were going. I do think she's in an extremely similar situation as me, and she's very very tempted to have an affair with this other guy. Well, who would blame her? Not me. Maybe one day I'll tell her what I'm up to. xxxx
So then heard from the sailor, who was feeling much the same. Well, yes, but you know it's not my problem however sympathetic I am. Although I do very much want to slap his wife. She sounds horrible, but then of course, it's just the one side, isn't it?
But why don't I feel depressed - well, I've been up to mischief of course. Nothing better is there? So I was on IMVU and met this guy from somewhere abroad, and we ended up getting up to all sorts of virtual mischief. Very good fun. Maybe this stuff should be available on prescription? Mind you, still would rather have the real thing.
What was lovely actually was that I did tell him my age (eek) but it didn't make him hesitate for a moment, even though he was a lot younger than me. Now, you don't get that with europeans or americans for that matter. Maybe I should move. But I do think there is a natural respect and admiration for older women that our guys have been taught not to have - except in exceptional cases, you know like Helen Mirren. And there is the money factor (see yesterday) - but then partly that's what's getting everyone down isn't it?
Also, spoke to my daughter this morning who said someone had thrown themselves under the train. She was rather ticked off about it - this is not the first time! So, back to feeling rather concerned about my friend - just how do you help someone who feels so down? Can you do anything? What would I want someone to do for me? But then, you would never know I was down cos I'm good at covering it up.
I did admit during this conversation to things not all being brilliant in my relationship - now I know this won't go any further - but to my surprise, I'm not alone. And we did have a chat about things changing and so forth - didn't mention anything about sex as such, but we both understood where we were going. I do think she's in an extremely similar situation as me, and she's very very tempted to have an affair with this other guy. Well, who would blame her? Not me. Maybe one day I'll tell her what I'm up to. xxxx
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