Weekend???

Well the sailor is back with a vengeance - at least two messages a day, and definitely up to his usual standard. He was most definitely a bit off while he was on holiday, but I guess all that time with your other half can get you like that! It's interesting, but he reckons his wife knows he's up to something, so he might not be able to get away this weekend. But I did remind him that as it was bank holiday, it might be a bit ghastly anyway for travelling anywhere, so it may not be on this week, we shall see.

So from my point of view, I'm not sure whether to make an excuse and go back on it, or just make out it's a last minute arrangement if it works out - very annoying really. I guess all these little problems are part and parcel of the whole infidelity game, but I'm not very good at uncertainty. He'll probably send a message later tonight. Last time he tried to get away, she went with him, which was fine, as I couldn't make it anyway, but he's quite sure she smells a rat - maybe she should sleep with him more often than every five years then hmmmm?

Also desperately stopping myself from calling the doctor - let him call me for a change - really wanting to be pathetic and ring him and get emotional and stuff - no don't do it - therein lies madness!!! But after such a lovely evening and such amazing phone sex, it's a little hard not to hear anything for days - but that's how it is with him. Okay, I can live with that. Also still having a few quick looks on the site, and see who's doing what. I did blow out one guy the other day, but I keep checking up on him like a stalker. He's always on the site, so obviously can live without me, the rat. So, if there's nothing else to report, might tell you about him tomorrow. Take care and be good !!