Sick

I knew it was too good to last - I've got a rotten cold. And of course, when I get a rotten cold I also get horribly maudlin and introspective. Hope I didn't give it to my favourite guy, but I rather think I must have - after all, all those bodily fluids, lol!

I do think I've got it really rather badly for him. I don't particularly want to talk to my other guys at all - with the exception of the swimmer of course, who I love unreservedly. I just want him again, that's all. It's bad isn't it? But we are just so perfect together. My poor heart is going to get mashed isn't it? I guess like he's done to the girlfriend with the stupid foreign name. Still, let's see eh?

I do think I need to get a bit busier, especially now it's the winter and I'm not working so much. I also need to get a bit fitter - my guy's been going to the gym and now looks even more mouth watering - I'm in danger of looking like the blob next to him. Nice to have an appreciative audience for the efforts too. Hmmm Swimming and running I think - and some free weights at home. Did wonders before - how long ago was that? A lifetime - I still thought if I lost weight I'd get sex - who was that stupid person?? xx