Wow!

I just had a bit of a revelation - which is also to say that it's so simple, and why the hell didn't I see this before?? Well, when I was starting my teaching degree, one of the first things we learnt about was Maslow's hierarchy of needs. Now I have to say, at the time it seemed like stating the bleeding obvious, so I kind of took it in and thought no more about it. Well, someone posted it today on a website I look at - in the spirit of this is why you feel like shit.

Well, it was so blindingly obvious. I knew I felt bad, I knew why, but to see it like that in a diagram, well it just hits you between the eyes doesn't it? And it also made me think that I can't really move forward in my life and achieve what I want to while I have this big gap in my support system.

On a physical level you need sex. Yes, obviously, but there's vibrators and hands and whatever isn't there? The big gap for me is connecting and affection - that's what I don't get at home - that's what I need - and that's what I'm getting from my guys. It's so obvious isn't it? And so, that's why I feel so cranky at the moment, cos they're all neglecting me!

Mind you, my American guy sent me a link - how to make lots of money - cos I said if I had loads I'd obviously spend it coming to see him! Not sure if it's legit, but could sure do with lots of money! I'll check it out. xxxxx