New Year!

Well, strangely after the New Year, I'm feeling a bit odd - partly excited and partly daunted. Now, my horoscope was good today. It said this year would be a huge adventure, but also not to panic and think I have to rush in with both feet. Good advice perhaps.

I've actually been looking at flats - some are just horrid, but I honestly could manage anywhere if I had to you know. Plus, it's not for ever, is it? Well, the house will have to be sold some day, and then again, my parents aren't going to live for ever, are they? I could end up with a nice little place if I'm not silly.

My favourite marine has been ill for a couple of days, so not speaking too much, poor thing. I'm still a bit ticked off not to hear from the bm, but maybe that ship has sailed - who knows? He is so peculiar sometimes, and it does make me a bit uptight to not hear from him in three months, and then get called up for sex the next day. Is it me?? Shouldn't I get paid for that kind of service??

Still, will go and see the golfer soon, and then the marine in march for a weekend. I have my excuse, I've applied to be an examiner - all the courses are on the weekend, haha. Clever me. And all the exams are too, mwahahaha. Still, hopefully I won't have to tell lies for too much longer.

You know, I keep looking round the house, and thinking, oh, I want to take that with me. It's peculiar. I honestly in my heart don't believe in possessions, but it's still keeping me nailed down, all this stuff. How odd.

Moving forward then, into the new year. It's very exciting actually, as I'm so utterly unlikely to still be here next christmas. But I will have to find a new courage to do it you know, it's been a long time x