Health?

A lot of time to myself this week, which has been rather nice. I've been doing a lot of thinking and a lot of reading. One thing I did do, was go for a mammogram - which got me thinking. Now, I haven't got the results yet, but hopefully they'll be fine. But I got thinking about stress and how it affects you - which I was the other week. I'm realising just how much stress I'm actually under by staying here and trying to function - and my god, it could actually kill me couldn't it? A friend died just after christmas - she was taking antidepressants and drinking a lot. Now, that's where it leads to, isn't it? That could be me.

The other thing that got me thinking was how sex is good for you - less risk of heart attack, less stress so on and so forth. So, what does it do to you, not having sex? And being miserable, what does that do? My girls still haven't gotten over the fact that I was offered antidepressants - maybe they will start to understand when I go, that it wasn't all me being selfish, as my H will no doubt tell them.

Well, seeing one of my guys tomorrow, which should be lovely. We're very comfortable with each other now, which is nice. And my wonderful american is coming in march, I'm actually counting the days. I really think we might have a future you know. And why not? He has such similar ideas to me on how to live his life. I was actually thinking about, how if we all switched off the tv and had sex, what a better world it would be. It sure would have been in my house, wouldn't it? Then he said something about he hated wasting time watching tv. No telly for us then - but lots of sex.

I've been reading a very interesting article about a women who, when her husband was forty gave her the present - of having sex every single day for a year. She has a lot to say about all the things I've been thinking about - and echoes a lot of my thoughts about how important it is actually. Nice when things appear to help you along isn't it? I've seen that a lot lately. xxxx